This book was written between the years of 2019-2020. I was in an toxic relationship and in that relationship there were many high highs and low lows. It was either butterflies or blues and never an in between. These poems are in chronological order so they tell a story. I wasn't in a healthy place and wasn't in a healthy relationship. These poems are a brutally honest reflection of love, lust, sadness, depression, hatred, self awareness, loss, light, endings, beginnings, and I didn't hold back or muffle my feelings.