They were the perfect couple. They laughed together, played together and connected in an unspoken language. Emmanuel Stello Washington was the joy of her life, until his untimely death. No matter how hard she tried to move on, the First Lady, could not get over him. He was in her soul. Take a privileged look into the private thoughts of a young woman who struggled with her intimate love, her traumatic grief and her inherent spirituality. Read her thoughts as she travels on a journey of self discovery and personal reflection.