This book is a story of a womans quest to find true love, but she never found it. Too young a bride, Gina dealt with a controlling, manipulative husband. Being an ex-military, she had the brunt of his PTSD and his anger issues that stemmed from the resentment for his own father. Their volatile marriage became a love-hate relationship. Flights escalated into fits of screaming rage. Emotional abuse had taken its toll as Gina grew to the point of hating him. Also playing the role of a cops wife, Gina learned about police corruption and her own husbands infidelity, which led to the destruction of their marriage and family. That life led to her becoming a very emotionally scarred woman, all while trying to raise their four sons alone. After many failed relationships, Gina built an emotional wall that developed into her forever black heart.